/i'm very tired in terms of physically and mentally.
i'm so sick and tired of making decision. having so many thoughts in my mind, & the decision is whether i should take part in the band competition and concert.
my case is very different from other people and sections. for me, the band only got me and eemei, 2 trombonist, if we don't perform, then the band got no trombonist ler, not like the other sections, still got some little juniors out there.
making this kuku decision is really very difficult for me, who will ever understand my feeling?
now, seems like a lot of them last minute back off, not participating in the concert, due to their own personal reasons. they got their own reasons for not taking part in the concert. something which i can't force them and i can do nothing about it.
as far as i know, this performance is something like a gathering for all of us who had left the band, for us to get together again.
and now, so many of them aren't very keen in this performance, which also make me don't feel like performaning too. but but but, there are millions of "BUTS" for me.
my dearest eemei, somehow she is keen about this concert bcos partly she had missed out the previous one, something which i can understand. We're like a pair of "ChopStick" We cannot be separated. I play, she play she play, i play
i guess, maybe what i can do now is try to get back those members. i also don't know, everyone of us are so half hearted.
Their sayings Eemei ~ "take your own stand, follow your heart" Carol ~ "Don't bothered about what the rest said" Shirley ~"Do you really want to perform?" Miss Tan ~"Do you really want to perform?"
YA, Do i really want to perform???
I'm really sick and tired of asking myself this question, whenever i ask myself this, i will surely think of all the BUTS.
